Thursday, 26 July 2007

Last night a silent whisper woke me up from my slumber. Out of the corner of my sleep filled eyes I saw a shadow trying to tip toe its way out of my room. Perplexed and still delirious I called out, “Who are you and where are you heading to?”

On hearing my voice the shadow stopped and stood with its head bowed. When I repeated my question, the shadow as if imploring me said “Sir I am a small ambition who lived in your eyes since ages and I was now leaving.” This shocked me and I could not do anything but ask “Why my old friend. What grave inconvenience could have I caused you which made you break this old relationship and leave?” As if I had embarrassed the shadow, it spoke meekly. “Sir, I have been with you as long as I could remember. You gave me birth and you brought me up. You nursed me in your heart. You gave me a place in your eyes and a place in your vision. You catered for me in your plans and you accommodated me in your sleep. Still after all these years and all this work I remained a black shadow. I could never be a reality and come and stand in front of you. I have hurt you, pained you and I do not want to do this anymore. I was leaving so you could live in peace.”

I was startled. My eyes suddenly felt heavy, as if something was filling them up. Tears maybe but I didn’t know. I was at a complete loss of words. It was as if someone had hidden all my words from me. I could sense them and see them as stars twinkling around me but as soon as I reached out with my hand to touch them they vanished with a pop like magic and the more I strained my eyes to follow the crisscrossed trajectory of these flying words the heavier my eyes became. I didn’t know what to say to this black shadow which now stood so humbly with its head bowed and arms dropped down to its sides. Perhaps an era or maybe a lifetime later I asked again – “If this is true my friend then why leave so quietly? Why not tell me and shake hands and leave? Why leave like a thief, as if you have something to hide or someone to hide from. Surely it can not be me. I have loved you and as you said, treasured you. Why then leave without a final hug or so much so as a handshake? Is our bond so weak that you can simply shrug it off and walk away?”

As if possible the shadow sank a few feet in the ground. It suddenly appeared smaller and weaker. With a sigh the shadow replied, “I was not alone in your eyes sir. A small hope lives right next to me. She is not very strong. She would not have survived if she knew I was leaving. She would have cried and insisted on coming along with me and had that happened, you sir would have been left all alone. I never intended that to happen. Farewell sir and please take good care of that hope. If anything were to happen to her you would be all alone.”

A sudden noise outside my room woke me up. I think I was dreaming. Yes it probably was a dream. Shattered pieces of a broken ambition still sting my eyes sometimes. A small hope still cries somewhere within sometimes.


  1. Loz said...
    Wonderfully written - I hope you find your heart's desire
    raving lunatic said...
    Thank you Loz. Thank you very much :-)
    Anonymous said...
    I'm so humbled by you.
    Anonymous said...
    I had tears in my eyes at the end. It really touched me.
    morinn said...
    wonderfully well-written and an unique subject!
    HollyGL said...
    What a beautiful, touching post. One that will resonate with each and every one of its readers.
    raving lunatic said...
    Thank you Barcode..I never meant to make anyone feel humbled. You call yourself the angry one and yet your modesty is unprecedented. I am thankful, truly.

    anonymous: cherish the hopes and the dreams, they shall take care of the tears.

    Morinn: Thank you very much, though dreams ambition and hopes are anything but unique. I think they are the reason of our existence!

    HollyGl: I am really erally waiting for you to write something new. Thanks a lot for your words.

    Thanks again everyone, it is comments like these which keep me ticking :-)
    Dave said...
    Power man, your writing skill is very good. If you can add in some picture in your blog that will make your blog looks more interesting. ;)
    YHO said...
    Great blog, keep on the good work.
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    Rashi said...
    hey nice write up...
    different, unique...keep on !
    DeathSweep said...
    This is the first time I've read your writings and I felt and could see what you were writing as I read it. You're a powerful writer, I have to go back and read more!


    BTW - Thanks for stopping by- see you soon.
    raving lunatic said...
    Thanks dave for the suggestion. I shall try and add some pics asap with my writings!

    Thanks for dropping by YHO, I am on your blog now!

    Thanks Rashi...and welcome to my world! hope you like your stay around here.

    Hey Deathsweep! Thanks for your words mate. Please do come back soon !
    Anonymous said...

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    Anonymous said... was wonderful..i cud relate to it so much..!!

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